alot of the time i don't see things and i assume certain things are a certain way, and then all of a sudden it hits me like a punch in the face that breaks my nose, or a kick that busts all the wind out of my stomach.

i wonder, do i really do that?

or is it safe to assume that i was misunderstood in what i said? probably not.

you're right as usual, you always are and you always have been, since i knew you.

it's true, i'm self-centred and all i can think of is myself. and sometimes it gets so bad that i don't even realise it, and i blame people for not attending to my needs. shames me to even think of it, but it's a harsh fact that i learn repeatedly the hard way because i just won't learn.

and thinking about the past few days alone i can't begin to count the number of times i selfishly kept things for myself or neglected to put others first.