and yet i can't bring myself to sleep.

maybe it's my eyes, they hurt too much.
or my nose that won't stop running.
or my phlegm that keeps getting coughed up but never out.
and i have decided to love you.
i can't get a handle on things.
i have been acting strange lately although i can't figure out why.(or maybe i can.)
i'm afraid of coming back to reality because i know that the world is an uglier place than i wish it could be.

i guess

i just

i don't really want next week to come.