but i guess before i do, i really should thank you.

for making me feel so much pain and grief.

because it's made me realise now how wrong i was about you.

and i must say, i'm very glad to realise all this so early in our friendship.

and you know, it just makes it that much easier.

to walk away from you.

for someone like you, friends who stay on for a long time don't come by often, and in comparison to you I can count myself extremely blessed and loved.

to have a family (although small and very imperfect) that loves me and will be there for me, no matter what, to have long-time friends (ah... you all know who you are most definitely) with whom i can still see myself being friends with when we're seventy,

and no, i haven't forgotten the lil boy blues. whom i have always known i can depend on when i don't feel like being a man or putting up a brave front for everyone else. (because he'll always be one for me. =))

and yes, all this time has made me realise all the people in my life whom i SHOULD be investing my love and time into developing relationships with.

so instead of flinging my affection, time, effort, grief and pain against a solid wall that somehow magnifies everything by ten times and slaps me back in my face,

here's my advance notice. i'm moving. on.