I had the chance to speak but i didn't. i couldn't. i wouldn't.
i didn't know what to say.
i had nothing to say.
i couldn't think of the right thing to say.
i just didn't want to seem like i was coming up with excuses for myself.

all i did was what i do best.
i cried.
i didn't answer.
i took forever to respond.

it makes sense for you to leave. it does.
and i don't blame you at all.

and now i'm alone.
and

my mind is screaming
my heart is crying
my soul is breaking

but my mouth stays shut.
for the first time in my life, i am unable to speak when i should.
at the moment that talking mattered the most to me, i didn't.

you are right, you deserve better, and you don't deserve to be fucked.